I am not a health nut and it’s the last category I thought I’d ever have on my blog, but my girl’s have been diagnosed with Nystagmus and Cerebral Palsy and doctors appointments, physical therapy, and medical devices have become a part of our life. I’m the person who never goes to the doctor and think focusing on your health is a waste of time and yet here I am, trying my best to stay on top of everything, working with my girls, and trying to manage on their physical development.
In addition, I found out about four years that I was struggling with insulin resistance and blood sugar abnormalities, which also lead to a year of infertility (diagnosed as PCOS) when trying to get pregnant with my first. I wrestled with God on a 20 minute prayer walk and made the decision to completely transform my diet and within a couple months I was pregnant with my first child. But not long after she was born, I quickly went back to my old sugar-loving ways.
Then, about a year ago, I got a phone call from my doctor after reviewing the the blood work from my yearly physical. It turns out I’m a 110 pound pre-diabetic and I’ve had many friends and family who have recently began their own diabetic journey as well. I received this phone call from my doctor at the exact time I felt God leading me down a path to learn more about Messianic Christianity and his directions on diet in the Bible. But now it’s been almost a year and my initial scare to give up sugar came and went. I still don’t eat pork, but the sugar slowly crept back in. Very recently, I’ve started to get weak and shaking in the late afternoons and went on my first run in 4 years.
I know that health and wholeness involves paying attention to the physical, spiritual, social, emotional components when it comes to someone else’s journey, but I think I’m finally ready to embrace this reality for myself. I don’t think being a health nut will ever be part of my identity or the passion of my life, but that doesn’t mean I can’t make the touch choice to go for a walk instead of getting online or to grab the cheerios instead of one of the dozen or more stock-piled boxes of Lucky Charms and Cinnamon Toast Crunch that are lining my pantry. I’m not saying it will be easy or that I won’t go kicking and screaming, but sometimes you just need to make a decision to make a change and ask people in your life to help encourage you along the way.